Week 6

Friday Mar.30th.
i had 1 month check up with doc early friday and went over 2 week and 4 week lab results. He is happy with my numbers. Labs look good except WBC has just peeked below normal range on the 4 week ones, which he didn't mention, but i read. i did mention i have been feeling some angry moments,some fatigue,painful joints, rash, but no depression. i go back end of June. Hate docs and tend to tell them whatever they want to hear just to get out. i did mention VX950 trials were coming to and end and things look good on that front. He said "oh i have no idea, you know more about it than me." Shouldn't grastro docs keep up on these things? Like homework?
Had jab 6 friday night. First 5 weeks of tx, i would have 2 or 3 rough days, then feel better. Not this week. So achy, so tired. Sunday, i found out how easy it was to be set off. Went to breakfast with my papa. i'm a daddys girl :) Waitress brought 3 strips of bacon with my eggs that was still oinking so it got sent back to get cooked. Big mistake! Should have sent whole meal back. Lesson learned. Of course i wasn't important, they had lots of breakies to cook and i had already received mine,then complained. So, as par for the course in these matters, they stuck the bacon back on the grill and burnt it (we heard cook say "she's gonna think these are too burnt")and had to cook 3 more slices. Then forgot to bring those until she was asked "when's the bacon was coming." Which of course i was so mad at that point i didn't see or hear papa do. i had already eaten most of the eggs, potatoes and bisquit, while i was waiting for them to fetch a pig. By this time i'm steaming angry. i started talking very loud about how incompetent and stupid they were and what could they possibly be thinking screwing up my bacon. Papa was shushing me. Good thing! all hell was about to break loose. Over bacon! hahaha But i knew i was raging. Will there be a time i don't recognize it or be able to control it? i was sure they were doing this on purpose. Had several urges to fly over counter into kitchen and fry my own damn bacon and also urges to walk out. Lesson learned. Send the plate back and walk out. Not worth the rage when the dumb asses knew i was hungry and really wanted bacon.